Monday, January 23, 2012

Stress and Other Hypotheticals

There was a brown bag lunch presentation today on stress management... which I did not attend. I don't think I've ever attended a FS presentation on stress management, now that I reflect on it, though they're offered fairly regularly. It's not so much that I don't feel stressed -- just not THAT stressed. Not so specially stressed that it deserves extra attention. I sense there's some danger at hardship posts of finding the stress somehow self-justifying, like the more stressed and frightened you are, the more self-important you're allowed to feel. Naturally, under that set up, everyone is going to feel SUPER stressed. I mean, we have to earn that extra R&R, right?

Besides, realistically, what are they going to tell me? Take a walk outside? Confide in my spouse? Some things you just have to deal with. I've heard drinking is a good way to go. Overworking is a less popular option. Me, I play a lot of computer solitaire.

Thursday, January 05, 2012

Return to Thermopylae*

My gut and my head seldom work in concert. During the trip back, one was in violent protest about my decision to board the return flight; the other was more circumspect. Whichever way they eventually sync up, here I am. 'Here' is not a bad place -- the country just has some issues. That's how I explained it to the folks at home.

Some of the others seem to be holding their feelings toward the posting more tenderly now, little kernels of attitude and emotion either brittle or fragile, depending. I wonder if my own little kernel of feeling is so visible. I'm glad to be half way through with the tour, but it's complicated. There's so much more I want to do here. Six months isn't enough time.

*Just to be clear, I'm a Greek in this scenario, not a Persian.